Waiting

Are you really there? Looking for me? Awaiting my presence to put a smile on my face? Looking for me to travel together? fish together? paint together? Are you waiting for someone to share your life with?

Yes am here :) and waiting for you and would be delighted to share my life with you, put a smile on your face too, am learning how to paint now so that i draw your picture, learning how to cook too, you will like the Italian cuisine which i believe is the best " PASTA" , we will be traveling to wherever the place you choose, i like traveling too :) we will be visiting Brazil, Mexico, Spain, Italy, South Africa,...

My soul-mate each one of us has been looking for the other, soooooooon we will be together, let's cross our hands and pray

You 2

Now i know that you didn't have any sense of manhood, you were selfish and cared only for yourself. Though i have tried to be as flexible as i could be, yet you didn't appreciate it.

Do you know what does it mean for a lady to know before getting married that she won't be having kids and still continues to be in a relation. It means only one thing is that she cares for this person more than anything in this entire life. However, the return was lack of care and humility.

elestehbal we eleste3bat enak shofteny we tedawar weshak dah ma3nah 7aga wa7da " ilet adam we tarbeya". Oh my God! How did i accept this even for a while?!! Yalla menak lellah , mosh mesam7akkkkkkkk 3ala kol el3amalto ma3aya

To You

Welcome back to my lovely blog, my free space where i write all my thoughts as they come out. Many unrelated topics that i want to write about:
1. Yes, you will be having a baby soon, i don't know why i feel & dream of your life that happens to be true
2. Miss you a lot as a dear friend, whom i wanted to contact several times but couldn't because i am almost sure that you don't want to contact me because the last time we connected i had terrible problems ... kicked out of home ....
3. Can we be friends again? it took me sooooooo long to get convinced that we really won't be together:) how long 5-6 years :) :) :)
4. You are really an amazing character, am so happy that you are living happily after getting married, i read all your posts and never get bored, i promised you before that i will keep on hearing and reading your writing endlessly
5. Keep it up and continue being positive, you changed to the better so keep going dear

aaaaaaaaaaaaaah

Pain is such an uncomfortable feeling that even a tiny amount of it is enough to ruin every enjoyment.

Breathe

They have destoyed your whole life

Ever since you were born they've

Dragged you down

They have decided that you wont

Have a chance in this shitty world

not knowing what's on the outside

Can't understand right or wrong

Breathe in the poisoned air

"I just wanna die"burning eyes filled with dead tears

The world is dying on you

And you just turning your back

not knowing what's on the outside

Poisoning our brainwashed mind

They have decided that you will die

A painful death

Breathe the death

our dying race

Breathe the death

Dying race

Breathe...

The last Drops of My life

Life doesn't work out as planned

Visions of happiness are burning

Dreams that turn into madness

I feel the end is closing in

I can feel my soul leaving me

To dwell in nothing and forever disappear

Trying to breathe but there's no air

My heart is bleeding why am I here

Taste the last drops of life

That vanish into the black sun

I must fight this feeling

Of sorrow slowly killing me

Try to breathe but there's no air

My heart is bleeding why am I here

Taste the last drops of life

That vanish into the black sun

Unforgiven

They dedicate their lives

To RUNNING all of his

He tries to please THEM all

This bitter man he is

Throughout his life the same

He's battled constantly

This fight he cannot win

A tired man they see no longer cares

The old man then prepares

To die regretfully

That old man here is me

The Unforgiven - Metallica

That's ME :)

At work you provide stability and can maintain organization. Your ability to handle details and to work hard make you the backbone of many organizations. You believe that work comes before play, even if you must work overtime to complete the job.

In love you are serious and tend to have traditional, conservative views of both love and marriage. You want a mate who can work along with you, building a secure, predictable life together. You demonstrate love and affection through the practical things you do for your loved ones.

In childhood you wanted to follow the rules and regulations of the school. You understood and respected authority and was comfortable with academic routine. You were the easiest of all types of children to adapt to the educational system.

Clear Expectations

Now i have clear expectations for the one i want to share my life with, it would be great if he has the below attributes, yet some compromises may take place which depends on the emotional bank account ( compromises will be to a certain extent):

Loving
Caring
Express his emotions
Take my opinion into consideration (doesn't over-rule)
Mosh 7eshary ( mosh bey7ot mana7'ero alzay alzalouma fe kol 7aga)
Calm not nervous
Cheerful not depressed & negative all the way
Cultured in terms of reading, listening to music & interested in culture in general
Agile: open to change & accepts new ideas
Religious: prays regularly ( Rabena fe 7ayatoh)
Equal to my financial & social standards
Responsible
Honest & never lie
Emotional, not rationale 99.9%
Determined & has a mission in life
Respectable: respects himself & others ( including ppl's feelings)
Extrovert
Has passion
Moderate age difference
Physically fit ( mosh kersh we 7arakat)

Rhyme

My darling, my lover, my beautiful wife,
Marrying you screwed up my life.

I see your face when I am dreaming.
That's why I always wake up screaming.

Kind, intelligent, loving and hot;
This describes everything you are not.

I thought that I could love no other --
that is until I met your brother.

Roses are red, violets are blue, sugar is sweet, and so are you.
But the roses are wilting, the violets are dead, the sugar bowl's empty and so is your head.

I want to feel your sweet embrace;
But don't take that paper bag off your face.

I love your smile, your face, and your eyes --
Damn, I'm good at telling lies!

My love, you take my breath away.
What have you stepped in to smell this way?

My feelings for you no words can tell,
Except for maybe “'Go to hell.”'

What inspired this amorous rhyme?
Two parts tequila, one part lime.

Fix You

When you try your best but you don't succeed

When you get what you want but not what you need

When you feel so tired but you can't sleep

Stuck in reverse
And the tears come streaming down your face

When you lose something you cannot replace

When you love someone but it goes to waste COULD IT BE WORSE?
Lights will guide you home

And ignite your bones

And I will try to fix you
And high up above or down below

When you're too in love to let it go

But if you never try you'll never know

Just what you're worth
Lights will guide you home

And ignite your bones

And I will try to fix you
Tears stream down your face

When you lose something you cannot replace Tears stream down your face

And I
Tears stream down your face I promise you I will learn from my mistakes

Tears stream down your face And I
Lights will guide you home

And ignite your bones

And I will try to fix you.


Song for Coldplay

Just Me

Mixed emotions of joy & anticipation we shewayet confusion

Cycling, Capaccuino & 4 Seasons are just perfect 4 fixing my mood :)

Meday2a

Why do people make fun of my feelings? I really hate it when people tell me Oh Yousra, you are very emotional!!! Should I be a 100% logical and rationale person?! I can be, but not all the time.

And then he comes & tell me next time you come and complain about something i will tell u as we tell Mariam bent 2o7'ty 2a7's 3aliky ya tarabiza we nedrabhalek, howa dah elenty 3ayzah??!!

How can someone make fun of others feelings like that? This does not mean being rationale and logical, it means that this person is extremely uncaring and unthoughtful of others feelings.

Ana meday2a awiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

إمتي الزمان يسمح يا جميل؟

"Love comes when manipulation stops; when you think more about the other person than about his or her reactions to you. When you dare to reveal yourself fully. When you dare to be vulnerable.”

"Love isn't finding a perfect person. It's seeing an imperfect person perfectly.”

“You don't love someone for their looks, or their clothes, or for their fancy car, but because they sing a song only you can hear.”

"No man is worth your tears, but once you find one that is, he won't make you cry”

ساعة لقلبك

حموده : أسخنلك السلطة يا حبيبي

فرحا بشئ ما

فرحا بشيء ما
محمود درويش - فلسطين
فرحا بشيء ما خفيٍّ، كنْت أَحتضن

الصباح بقوَّة الإنشاد، أَمشي واثقا

بخطايَ، أَمشي واثقا برؤايَ،

وَحْي مايناديني: تعال! كأنَّه إيماءة سحريَّة

ٌ،وكأنه حلْم ترجَّل كي يدربني علي أَسراره

،فأكون سيِّدَ نجمتي في الليل... معتمداعلي لغتي.

أَنا حلْمي أنا. أنا أمّ أمِّي

في الرؤي، وأَبو أَبي، وابني أَنا

.فرحا بشيء ما خفيٍّ، كان يحملني

علي آلاته الوتريِّة الإنشاد . يَصْقلني

ويصقلني كماس أَميرة شرقية

ما لم يغَنَّ الآنفي هذا الصباح

فلن يغَنٌيأَعطنا، يا حبّ، فَيْضَكَ كلَّه لنخوض

حرب العاطفيين الشريفةَ، فالمناخ ملائم

،والشمس تشحذ في الصباح سلاحن

ا،يا حبُّ! لا هدفٌ لنا إلا الهزيمةَ فيحروبك.

. فانتصرْ أَنت انتصرْ، واسمعْ

مديحك من ضحاياكَ: انتصر! سَلِمَت

ْيداك! وَعدْ إلينا خاسرين... وسالما!

فرحا بشيء ما خفيٍّ، كنت أَمشي

حالما بقصيدة زرقاء من سطرين، منسطرين...

عن فرح خفيف الوزن،مرئيٍّ وسرِّيٍّ معا

مَنْ لا يحبّ الآن،في هذا الصباح،

فلن يحبَّ!

مواطن كنباوي

نفسي أبطل عادة سهر يوم الجمعة و النوم 12 ساعه فأصحي يوم السبت دماغي مضروبة في الخلاط ، أفضل متنحه و مش مركزة و لا قادره أتحرك من علي الكنبة و أصبح مواطنه كنباوية ( مأنتخة علي الكنبة و ماسكه في الريموت أتفرج علي أي حاجه

Plz stop pushing

بجد أنا صعبانه عليا نفسي أوي، هو ليه محدش فاهمني، مهو أنا مش وحشة أوي كده ، هو ليه لما بشوف حد زعلان و هو حلف بالعظيم أنه زعلان، لما يتعصب أروح أقوله المفروض مكنتش تتصرف كده، يا أما أتقبل أن الشخص ده زعلان و ممكن يتعصب يا بصراحه أقوله أنا مش طالبه معايا دلوقتي و خلاص، لكن فكرة النكد رايح جاي ديه مش فهماهه

يا رب أفرجها من عندك

Journey of Misery

I really hate her. No further changes will take place. She became out of control, a truly miserable person, has such a negative energy & attitude. Saying i am all her bad deeds he2he2, let her say whatever she wants. She has never been satisfied, so i am just being an excuse for her to be disatisfied. I hateeeeeee her. May God give me patience to stand what she is doing, because if i reached the point of no return, i will either shout at her face or i will run out of what is called home.

I think i have to start planning having my own home. Why should i stay with her?! No point, no gain. What an awful person? May this story end with her or my death? I am dam sure, if i died she will not care. When did she care for me or my feelings??? I can't remember, she has the ego, pride , that she can never admit being wrong, always thinking win-lose, by no means she thinks win-win. Why should the other party win while she has the option to win and let the other person lose, that’s her way of life, she is the only correct person, no one is as good as her or her nasty friends. Silly & stuborn creature.

Until her death, she will never feel that she was wrong & will never know how precious her kid was.

But, i hope she feels when she stands infront of God, when he asks her:” why she has been that cruel, awful, unkind, & aggressive?”

What she will say is " I was doing the right thing, behaving my kid?

But God will tell her she should have followed decent & nice way to express her opinion.

She will have nothing to say & her kid will not forgive her.

But God will tell the kid how about entering paradise and having a gorgeous villa, next to Prophet.Joseph's villa, conditional of taking your mum with you?

She will accept, telling God let us enter Paradise together , but be located in two very different areas where i will never see her again at Paradise.

God agrees to the proposal and it was the last time to see her mum, after a long journey of continous pain & suffer.

When will her journey of misery end???????!!!!!!

أوف هم و أنزاح، علي فكره مش لازم الواحده تبلع العريس بكوباية مايه عشان تتجوز